Yesterday morning I logged onto the Facebook to catch up on all my social media and I saw this link that was shared to a pregnant friend of mine by another Mommy: A Letter to My Pregnant Self written by Kelly who you can read more about on In The Mom Light......I about died of laughter reading it!!! Things I wished I would have known back then that I know now almost 7 yrs in....
7 yrs ago I was still overly pregnant with our son, Breyden, I was worried about everything....did I have all the now useless shit that I did not use or need for our son....I was worried about labor....how would I know when it would start.....trust me you know.....it hurts like a bitch....and on top of that Andrew was fortunate enough to have to convince an overly tired (already had been up all night at labor and delivery once) and medicated on ambien wife that yes its time to go in....since you stop yelling or speaking when you have a contraction....fun times!!!....I am glad I never wasted my time of a birth plan.....by the time we got the hospital again I wanted my epidural stat....bad part is military hospitals like to torture you first but putting you on pitocin since I was already 16 hrs in....fun times fun times!!!
Fast forward through the years.....I have worn my fair share of baby spit up....I gave up trying to change my shirt all the time...sad but I'll admit to it! and besides who wants to do more laundry than they already have to! I have been peed on by both of my kids....Andrew still out numbers me on this one though....and has the best in the middle of the night story that will embarrass Breyden's when he's older!.....I have changed numerous diapers....I have fallen asleep nursing our daughter only to wake up wondering how long both of us were out for and contemplated if it was worth moving since she would be up again soon....we have jammie days....aka less laundry to be done!.....my body is not the same as it used to be pre-kids....I now long for the day that I can take a shower or go to the bathroom alone without a visitor coming in (daughter) or being yelled for (son...sometimes husband).....sometimes I try to take refuge in there....but they always seem to know when you are seeking solitude and hunt you down more!...We have had our fair share of meltdowns in target, restaurants, malls, anywhere and everywhere that you will be embarrassed and feel like everyone is looking at you and judging....and finally after our second child you just don't care what people think.....and when you see it happen to someone else you don't judge....you secretly think to yourself thank god that is not me at this time and pray that your kids don't join in!
Even with what I know now that I wished I would have known then I still would have signed up for my job as a Mom....it may be the most work, most stressful,.....but the rewards still out weigh all the downsides even during the darkest of days!
Elisa
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