Goal Adjusted.....for now

So not wanting to admit this, but I have to come to reality sometime and the sooner the better.....

Since the half in the beginning of July my left leg has been jacked up....I should have listened to my inner thoughts about replacing my shoes prior to the race, but they honestly did not have enough miles on them to warrant replacing.....just at 225ish....shoes are supposed to last 300-400 miles.....but they had started to tear the shit out of my toes on long runs....really effing nasty.....and since I was trying to not put pressure on my toes I am confident that I was not running normal....I was compensating....which in turn has jacked up my leg....NOT cool at all....

I thought taking a week off would fix things and allow it to heal...along with new shoes of course....nope....so I thought taking a few more days off would help.....nope....so I switched gears....and went back to my old stand by of insanity....which is working just fine to get my exercising in....but I am supposed to be training for a marathon....26.2 damn miles.....so I tried to run again yesterday.....I could not even make it to 3 miles without my leg/knee killing me....how the hell I am suppose to run a marathon.....

I am at the 8 week out mark....everything I have read is if you have to take 3 weeks or more off you may want to reconsider doing the marathon another time.....this is NOT what I wanted....not at all....I may try to run outside on saturday....see how it feels...... I am doubting it will be anything but a shitty run....that does not feel good.....

So for the most part I am coming to the realization that I am 80% sure I will not be competing/completing this years TC marathon.....and its really annoying and frustrating as hell!....especially when just a month ago I was feeling awesome when I ran.....6 miles was a short run to me.....it always felt great....and bam....everything I have spent money on (ugh), time and effort has come up short......I feel awesome for completing a half.....but I really wanted to do a full....I guess it will more than likely have to wait until another time.....unless my leg miraculously decides to feel better...I am not holding my breathe on that one!

So for now....I will go back to my old stand-in.....and continue my love affair with Shaun T!...and have him tell me to dig deeper on most days.....